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I've officially decided that it is mandatory for me to take a vacation a heck of a lot more often than I do. Our week in San Diego was exactly what we all needed and let's be honest, sitting on the beach doing a whole lot of nothing just makes life better for a while. The kids had never been to the beach so they were completely thrilled with the freezing water, mutant looking sand crabs, and everything else.
One day we decided to "purprise" them and take them to Sea World. I hadn't been there since I was 8 so I was expecting some glorified zoo type situation and was hoping that the money would be worth it. We told them when we got to the parking lot where we were, and seriously their expressions and excitement was the best part of my entire trip. They gobbled my heart right up and our time that day was so sweet together.
I'm a regular at my bead supply store and while I was there yesterday I was telling one of my favorite employees who I always talk to there, JR, about my trip. He's the kind of guy who seriously just gets life. Completely chill, happy to be here, type of guy. He has two kids and is so nice to everyone you think for a moment that he just can't even be serious. But he is, and everyone loves him for it.
After telling him about how much fun the kids had he told me, "You know, those are the moments I live for. Just with the people you love, doing whatever. Whenever I'm with my kids and they're having fun and smiling and laughing I just think man, this is what life is about. This is it. Some people miss it because they focus on other things. But I'll tell ya what, that's where true happiness comes from; spending time with family and friends and making your kids light up."
Ok nugget of goodness from my day at the bead store. As stressed and crazy as I feel like our life is, to think that I could have missed out on this opportunity to have kids with us at this time makes my heart ache. So much more has filled our lives. I don't even necessarily know what that more is, but it's there. And my heart is full every day because of it. We wouldn't have had kids for quite a while longer, and I'm grateful we're able to experience this type of joy and growth during a time when we least expected it. Because you see those pictures up there? Our family just wouldn't be complete without every single one of those people in it...
I almost just pressed publish but there's a little more about this that is on my mind. Sometimes my "this is it" consists of me wanting to throw plates across my kitchen because my sink is full for the millionth time in one day. Sometimes this is me getting frustrated at the kids for leaving another mess, or me wanting to cry because 383423874937243 projects and deadlines are due, and sometimes my this is remembering to pick my kid up from school when I should have already been there. More often than not I rush bed time because I am tired and don't want to read 10 more books and I want quiet and time to work in peace. I'm trying to learn how to let these moments roll off me, and have more this is it, this is what life is about moments. Some days I do better than others. And some days I reward myself with a shopping spree or manicure or big fat snow cone with cream in it because dang it, I made it through another day as a parent to a 4 and 6 year old.
But shopping, manicures, and big fat snow cones have been so much better knowing that I have a special and crazy family to go back home to.