When people asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I would confidently smile, and tell them "a writer". My dream has always been to be published at 25, and to motivate and inspire the world through my writing. The responses that I would get after revealing my goal were nothing short of, "oh, good luck with that." After a while, I started to believe that maybe getting published was too hard. That maybe, I needed to do something else. I changed my major several times throughout college, and at the beginning of this year I started to study for the LSAT to go to law school. After I realized this course was not making me happy, I thought that I'd get my Master's in education, and become a teacher. Still, I felt unfullfilled.
Four months ago, I was hit hard with the realization that I turn 25 at the end of this year, and I need to publish a novel. I FINALLY put all of the doubts that I had aside, and realized that I CAN and WILL do it. I started this blog to keep me motivated, and to have a creative outlet. That simple step has opened many doors for me, and starting today, I AM SELF-EMPLOYED.
I am excited, nervous, and thrilled beyond any explanation I could possibly try to give. I have been waiting for this moment for years, and it feels surreal to have it be happening. Next week, I GRADUATE. And I'm graduating in a major that I chose because it is what I'm passionate about: English. This summer will be spent building up The Shine Project, and finishing two novels I have been working on. I think I am in dream land.
I have learned, that when people know THEY can't accomplish something because it's too hard for them, they tell you that it's going to be too hard for you too. I'm excited to share my stories of trial, success, frustration, and learning with you. Am I still scared to death of being rejected? Am I still scared to death of never being published? Of course. But this time, my desire to succeed far outweighs any negative thoughts or comments that people give me.
(it's what we say in my family when we get excited. embrace it.)